Feelings between the lines

For the future;

2012-01-13T10:55:00.000+08:00

For future reminiscence, I am blogging this down.

I’m blessed to have such a wonderful boyfriend even though our arguments often end up in a major fight. But tell me, which couple doesn't?

A person came up to me of late and asked, aren't you bored being with your boyfriend of 6 years? Don't you want to try and see what the world has to offer? You’re still young.

My dear friend the answer is obvious. I’m not bored/tired seeing my boyfriend regularly. I love and appreciate the time spent together. Even if I did, I won’t get bored of loving him, it’s the things we do. How much things can a person do in Singapore? It’s a small country and every little thing, costs money. Money that could be saved if spent wisely.

6 months back, both of us went to Bangkok for 4 days straight. I loved the time there; we got to do so much together. It’s a new experience for us both and I wouldn’t have wanted to share that experience with anyone else. Yes, i would love more adventures with Boyfriend. If only money wasn’t the issue.

Boyfriend is accompanying me for lunch! 12 noon, please hurry! Chao!

How to save a life;

2012-01-09T00:08:00.003+08:00

Sometimes it seems the harder i try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. I feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. But since that was asked of me, i shall give it to you.

Anyway, people say you don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone. Truth is, you knew what you had, you just never thought you’d lose it.

Time for a change?

2012-01-06T09:48:00.001+08:00

Over time, changes in features occur and so do one character. How do you define change? Change is too vague and wide that is indescribable. Everything’s changing, everyone is changing. So when it comes to the matters of the heart, it’s hard to describe. You could express yourself differently and yet your feeling says otherwise. I was totally and utterly in love with the boy I fell for in school. Somehow, overtime, as he’s character changed, I felt more distant. Distant to the character I fell in love with, the person who was quiet and fragile that seems to crack at any word I say.

It’s different now. All I feel is anger in his heart. As if he’s a volcano ready to erupt after an earthquake. And every time a fight occurs you tend to not watch your words when it flies. Everything that has been bottled up inside will be let loose to run wild. And those words aren’t nice, they’re hurtful in nature. When an individual is angry, do they really mean what is being said or is it because they are in the spur of the moment. It’s hard to decipher the meaning behind it. I have believe forgiving is the way when such situation arises. Then again, probably, I have been too lenient. Repeating a mistake is fine but how many is too many? If in every fight it occurs, the individual will be sick and tired of hearing it.

And that is how I’m feeling. You told me once too many time to f*** off and of course, I try to understand the situation and not blow up and stay. Again the question comes to mind, how many times is too many? Maybe it’s time for me to decode the meaning and get over it.

What do you say when you get angry?

2012-01-04T15:22:00.000+08:00

Do not do to others what angers you if done to you by others. - Socrates
Here's a story about anger that i think is worth sharing:

Nails in the Fence

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.

The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.

The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone.
The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there.

The next time you get angry with someone and are about to speak, ask yourself if there was a way to say what you want to say with neutral words. Often the habit of reacting angrily is just that - a habit you learned when you were young and haven´t questioned since. You might have become blind to the effect it has on your life.

It is really so that the world reflects back your own attitude. If you constantly wonder why people are angry at you, perhaps it is you who treated them with anger first? Listen to the words and tone of voice you use. And try, really try to speak neutrally to someone who are angry with.

And you just might find that life begins to feel a lot nicer - because people aren´t angry at you anymore.

Anticipating 2012!

2011-12-20T10:08:00.000+08:00

"This treatment" is really getting on my nerves!

I really cant wait for February. I have already told myself to be patient but the level I'm at now is boiling. I just have to endure for another 1 more month before the "day"! Heheh. Not going to say it here as i don't even know who's reading, better be safe than sorry.

20th today and its PAY DAY! Whoop whoop! But i need to save money, so not gonna spend on unnecessary goods. Planning to take up English course next year April! Yes i know, people will ask why waste money on English lesson when my English is good enough for conversations. Well, i believe I'm not up to that standard yet and i need to improve my English further. Waste some money now but it will be worthwhile in the future.

Heheh, excited for next year even though money will be tight. Lots of studying and courses to take! Yippee!

Anyway, I'm excited for my boyf too. He's taking up Diploma in Work, Health & Safety Management! I know that course will let him succeed in the future, insyaallah.

Okay now, better do some web browsing for PowerPoint presentation. Bye now!

2011-12-15T09:28:00.000+08:00

TGIT! Thank god its Thursday! Okay, I wont be able to blog much starting from the 27th December onwards. Yeah, yeah.. You guys might be asking why? Well, I wont have my personal space in the office anymore! They are adding 4 more to cubicles and guest what we are seating 4x4. Sucks if you want to browse the Internet and look through face book. Guess, i shall have to do that at home. I prefer using the office computer to do such browsing as its way faster than my mobile broadband.

Anyway, all the office staff are going to have an off day on the 23rd of December. Yippee! More time to rest before we start enjoying the Christmas celebration.

Okay, goodbye for now!

Feelings:

2011-12-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

My heart & face etched a smile when boyf started talking about the MiuMiu bag i have been wanting for my birthday. But deep down inside, i know that i should not anticipate the bag as a gift. He's not working and he's not earning an income.

Therefore, i understand if he doesn't get me anything. But I'll be sad for sure, no girl wants to be left not getting any gift for their birthday. Since, he's told me not to bring up the subject about birthday gift, i shan't. What a luck.. haizzz..

Okay i shall head to bed now. Goodnight everyone!

Do Good Things Expecting Nothing In Return

2011-12-13T10:31:00.000+08:00

We have to do good things in this world, not because we will have a good result, good karma. That is only for children, for the beginning, for the beginner of practice. Then they still need awards, merit, punishment, all these praises and blame. But as we go to a higher dimension, a higher level of consciousness, we forget all this. We do whatever to benefit other people and whatever is righteous according to our conscience. Not to expect anything at all in return.

If we look at the history of the world, not everyone who does the righteous things, not every act of kindness will be rewarded with the same level of goodness. For example, Gandhi, He strived to do good for his people and his country. And to bring peace among religious believers in India, and what did he get in the end? A bullet. And many other people like Kennedy of America, Abraham Lincoln, etc., etc. All these good people. They sincerely tried to bring justice to the world and peace to human beings. But they all got a very tragic retribution for the good that they had done to the world. Politically speaking even, not only in religion.

So not everything that we do good will get the good things in return. Therefore, in simple never expect anything in return.

Random!

2011-11-23T14:38:00.000+08:00

Good afternoon!

Its already lunch time and I've gobbled up a whole bowl of rice with ayam penyet. Ahh, ayam penyet, the Malay delicacy. Yes, it is nice if you decide to attack the chili head on. Anyway, apart from having my lunch, i went around in search of a good cuticle gel and found myself torn between OPI & Sally Hansen. Decided to purchase the cuticle gel from Sally Hansen as its less expensive. Yes, me, always looking for a cheaper bargain with good quality. Hopefully i made a good choice. Will only be able to try it once I'm home.

Oh god, its only Wednesday and I'm dying for the weekend. Really in need of some quality time alone to relax on my bed, watch some good TV shows and get it on with my mac book. Ahh yes, the mac book. I have yet to sort out my pictures and music and I'm hoping I'll be able to get that done this Saturday. Oh ya! And a catch up for my daily TV series. New girl, Gossip girl, 90210 and the new show hart of Dixie. Whoop whoop!

November is already coming to an end and December is around the corner, how fast is that? Its going to be 2012 soon and i am not look forward for the future. Why? This means that i will have to grow up and start being an adult. Sigh! You're teenage years really go by very fast and i really don't want it to end just yet. I'm not planning to get hitch nor engaged anytime soon, i really don't see why people would want to get married young when money is tight. Unless your future husband is well to do, then that is an exception. However if you are going to depend on your parents then you gotta think twice. Just a thought though.

Hopefully, I'm able to enjoy and live life comfortably in the future. Shall work hard and save loads of money. But as of now, i have no savings. Hahah! Have been spending away all the cash. My 2012 resolution is to reach at least 5k in saving by year end 2012. Insyallah!

Okay now, Shall get back to doing work before some people start nagging!

Bye now!

Office

2011-11-11T15:50:00.001+08:00

Today, on 11.11.11, a little bird told me something that's life changing.

Heheh.. Somehow, i am not bothered the slightest bit. You know, you're over 30 and I'm only 20years old. That makes me 10 years younger than you and 10 years less experience than you. So what makes you think I'm unable to do the job. Yes, i make mistakes. Yes, I'm careless. Isn't that the learning journey?

And your saying that they didn't wanna promote me because I'm careless? Well, hey! They did promote me and yes I'm still here. I'm still new to all of this and of course it takes time to learn everything. Don't worry, I'm staying here till i get my degree or till they decide to kick me out, which ever comes first.

I shall pretend i did not hear that and shall put up a fake front. Hate it! But what to do, its all about survival.

In this working world, its all about surviving. No one should be trusted. -__-

What a life! Alright now, Good bye!

The Tuesday Blues

2011-11-08T16:53:00.000+08:00

5mins blog post!

Somehow, i feel the need to get my hair done. It is messy and the hair colour is horrible! Urrgghhh..
I wish i have more disposable income to do all those luxury pampering. Anyone willing to pamper me with hair, nail & body treatments?

My hair colour is too dull and i feel the need for a technical colouring. Should i do it? I shall decide on it after my exams are over.

1hr 10mins left before i head back home. Oh no, took the train to work today due to the rain. Therefore, will be reaching yishun prolly by 7pm. Boohoo... That's what happened when you ride, not willing to get wet by the morning rain.

Alright now, i better head back to doing my work. Till tomorrow!

Bye bye!

Space-Bound

2011-11-08T01:14:00.000+08:00

"I'm a space-bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon.
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
250,000 miles on a clear night in june
And I'm so lost without you
Without you"

What a lovely song. Eminem is sure one hell of a good rapper. i hope he continues producing good music for the years to come. i don't think ill get bored of listening to him.

Anyway, its 1am now and I'm working tomorrow. Lovely.

Monday has not been a productive day at all. Managed to complete 1 chapter only. Head out for breakfast at approximately 930am and then back home. Went over to Punggol popeye's to have lunch cum dinner at around 4pm. Beautiful scenery but sadly too crowded for any moments of relaxation.

After which went back home and watched the MTV EMA's. And I'm here now blogging after transferring music from my iPod to my mac, tedious job indeed!

Alright, i better head to bed before i start yawning at work later.

Goodnight!

Random feelings..

2011-11-06T03:44:00.000+08:00

Good morning?

I believe its way too early for a blog post. But somehow, i feel the need to rant. Wasted my Saturday laying in bed and watching a whole lot of TV shows and exams is 1 week away. I feel like I'm not working hard or am i?

Am i on the right path? Is this what i want? Somehow, i am having second thoughts. I don't even know why I'm feeling this way. Its like, I'm not the person i used to be. People do change over time, true? I believe so. I'm getting slightly irritated, its as if I'm choking and there isn't room for me to breathe.

I believe time will tell me exactly what i want. Right now, all i can think about is my degree. I really need to do something that will make me proud.

Slight shift from topic, I really get irritated when people put me done especially in terms of education. Urrgghh! Sometimes i just feel like shouting straight at the person face and tell them to shut up. Especially if the person is someone close to you. Urrrgghhh!

Alright, i need my beauty sleep now. Goodnight all!

2011-11-04T17:47:00.000+08:00

TGIF! Let me say that again TGIF!!

But what should i do on a long weekend? Study, of course!

My exams are 1 week away and I'm so nervous. I really need to buck up and study my accounts and OBSW. I believe I'm able to do my accounts but not as confident for my OBSW. Urrrgghhh!

My spending habits so far so good and i believe i can achieve maximum saving potential once December comes. I'm in need of a getaway! Thinking of going KL next year march but i believe it will be boring? Possible to save enough money and head over to phuket? I shall try.

I really need to start my personal saving. Ive already worked full time for a year now and i have yet to save anything! Arggghhh! And I'm turning 21 next January. Double arrrgghhh! Possible for me to fast forward my degree? Climb the corporate ladder? Buy my own car? Travel to USA? Study overseas for masters? So many things to achieve but.........................

OH MY! Its already 530pm and in half an hour i will be going back. I really cant wait to head back and rest my ass off! 3 days of relaxation and it is really a draw.

Okay now!

Bye bye!!

2011-10-27T15:31:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i just feel like shouting and saying NO. Urgghhh! So fed up. Even though my rank has changed I'm still being treated the same. What the Fuck. Really? Am i stuck with doing this for the next 2 years of my life?? AARRRGGHHH!!!!

ARRRGGGGHHHH!!!! AAARRRGGGHHHHH!!!!! AAARRRRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its okay... Just endure till I'm done with my school and then bye bye!

PATIENCE!

2011-10-27T11:31:00.000+08:00

Yippee!!! My very own Mac Book Pro! Thanks to mom for achieving this for me. I have been playing with the mac book every other day since i got it last Friday. Anyway, shall start downloading music and movies over the weekend. But on the other hand i need to start studying cause exams are 2 weeks away! OHH NOOO! Super nervous.. Still have tons of things to revise and of course i need to do well. Is getting an A possible? Hmmm....

But whatever it is, i shall try my very best. I have been contemplating on whether to get a B.Wax done. Should i? Or should i not? hmmm... Thinking hard. Anyway, i need to get myself an external hard disk and i am still thinking about. Shall survey the prices again later before making the purchase.
Alright now, i will be going for my lunch in 15mins. I'm an early bird! Hahaha. Alright now, bye bye!

2011-10-10T10:50:00.000+08:00

Good Morning!

I just chopped off my long hair and I'm feel abit sad. Somehow, i want my long hair back.

ARRRGGGHHH!!!

But never mind, at least i look more youthful and of course less messy. Hehehe..

Went to school via public transport as i had classes today and i do not want to get caught in the rain later.

Today is boyf's 1st day at work and i am so happy for him. Glad that he found a job quickly. Hahah..

Oh no, i need to start saving money! Die die!

Ok bye now!

2011-10-05T14:30:00.000+08:00

I feel like i should be doing something to help. But However, i am doing none. Urrrgghhhh!!! Why is there nothing to do? Haix...

I hate sitting down and staring at the computer..

Anyway, mum's buying me a macbook pro end of this month. Yeayy Yeayy! Like finally, I've been waiting like forever!

Recently, bought boyf an Adidas F50 boot which cost SGD 300. Hahaha.. Glad that he like the gift as it was supposed to be my anni gift for him but i gave him a day later. Hahahah... This year, he has not bought me anything yet as he's still looking for job. No job, no Money.

But i can wait.. My birthday is coming in a few months. WHOOOPIEE!!!!

Alright, back to work now. hahah.

BYE BYE!

2011-10-02T23:13:00.000+08:00

Such a nice way to 'celebrate' today.

Friends first before me? When tomorrow is our 6th year anni? Haizzz..

I really have no comments..

2011-09-30T15:52:00.000+08:00

Bored! Bored! Bored!

What do i want to do in life? What?!! Haix.. I am still feeling the lost in my career direction. I want to earn loads of money doing something i like. I want a job that will be able to offer me travelling opportunities but no flight stewardess job please...

Stress stress stress! How can this even happen. I thought i have decided?

People say that being 20years old is young and there will be loads of opportunity for me. But where is it? Where are all the opportunity?! I FEEL LIKE SHOUTING!

AARRRGGHHHHH!

Really need somewhere to vent all this anger out.. Why is the world this cruel? Why cant it be easy? Really hope I'll land a good job in the near future.

Shall pray and donate often. Hahah!

Alright! Bye again

2011-09-30T15:14:00.000+08:00

Good Afternoon!!

Today is FRIDAY and weekend is in a few hours!! Whoooppie! Excited for my long awaited retail therapy tomorrow plus watching Johnny English with the BF!

Right now, I'm at work. And there is nothing much to be done at the moment but i bet there will be things to do later.

Its Friday and i don't feel like working! Hahah..

Went to the Orange Lantern for lunch! Had the awesome Vietnamese beef noodle. Totally love it! And then, went to search for our colleagues birthday gift. Celebrating her birthday today. Excited! Hahaha..

Anyway, Ive been thinking alot about my future. What do i want to do in life and what are my career goals. I really need to start making up my mind. Sigh. Life is tough and deciding is hard.. Why is it like that... I need a career that will bring me joy at the same time good money. Hmmph! Cant i be a Taitai?? I need to start thinking and deciding before it is too late.

Already for now, I'm off to do work..

Bye bye letterperfectt.

2011-09-29T17:20:00.000+08:00

Alright, it has been a while since i last blog.

I have already started classes and its getting pretty tiring juggling work and school. Well, this is what happens when you don't listen to your parents when you were younger. Anyway, I've just been promoted!! I am really thankfully to my bosses for noticing me. Hehehee. Shall continue to work hard and hopefully get recognize further.

Hari Raya has also come and go. Cant believe its over. Boyf and myself wore white this year, lovely colour i must say! No Hong Bao as Ive already started working. And also, i have not started giving out hong bao as I'm still studying! Hahah, benefit on my part! People say you have to give blah blah blah, actually i don't even care! HAHAHA, Evil me.

Anyway, i bought myself the ISO Hair Straightener like finally!!! I have been contemplating for months, I repeat MONTHS! Shall save more money and get the GHD one if the ISO one break down on me.

As of now i am loving the Curls, Waves, Flip in, Flip out and best of all straightening! Shall post a pictures if i have the time.in, Flip out and best of all straightening! Shall post a pictures if i have the time.

This coming Monday is my 6th Year Anniversary with Boyfriend! My goodness, how time flies. He's ORD-ing next Wednesday. Hahah! Its good that he is starting he's career soon. All the best in his future endeavours.

However, we are celebrating it this SATURDAY! Yipppeee! I'm going shopping! Buying myself a set of work clothes and shoes! And of course, something for boyf... if he wants.

2011 is well coming to an end! That was fast! Approximately 3 months to my 21st Birthday. Age is really catching up to me :( I really want the MIU MIU bag! But sadly, did not save any money for it. Therefore, shall get myself an LV or prolly Retail therapy.

Alright, shall end this post now.

Bye readers, i doubt there are any.

MIU MIU Matelassé leather bag

2011-07-29T16:21:00.000+08:00

I really wanna get my hands on the above bag. Shall save money and buy it for my 21st birthday, don't think im doing chalet. The bag above is going to cost me 2k but im sure im able to save it up within the next couple of months. hehehe..

Anyway, im back from BANGKOK! One word, AWESOME!!!

Hopefully, god presents me with a good oppurunity soon..

Bye bye now!!

2011-06-27T10:51:00.000+08:00

Oh no.. Its already 27th June? Its been 2 months since i last post.

3 more days to my Bangkok trip. Excited for shopping! I work so hard, and finally i am going on a vacation.

But, then again I'm not looking forward to wasting my money. Contradict much?

School is starting in July and i am happy to continue studying.

You know, i want to buy a car in the near future. Therefore, i must work hard!

Is it fated or is a challenge to overcome? I'm confused. God, please guide me on the right path.

2011-04-15T10:29:00.000+08:00

One word: Disappointed.

Sigh...

School

2011-04-11T16:47:00.000+08:00

Today, Monday sucks.

WTF. I'm not even paid extra to do all the extra shits I'm getting. My main aim right now is to get started with school and runaway from here.

This place is horrible. HORRIBLE.

I can't stand coming to work everyday doing shits! And i get paid peanuts. FCUK!

Totally regret not doing well in school. Argghhh!!

I've been ranting everyday and my everyday sucks. How i wish i was born with a silver spoon. But sadly I'm not. Therefore, I'm going to make sure, if ever i have kids they are going to have the good life. I don't want them to suffer like me.

BYE!

FINALLY AN UPDATE!

2011-04-08T11:11:00.000+08:00

Okay, i've been blogging less due to my laziness.

Yes, i've been lazy. Lazy me...

Anyway, im starting to hate my work here. And i dont even have the mood to work. But i have to endure and keep on motivating myself.

Going Bangkok this July. WTF no money and still going bkk. Really regret booking it. Flight & Hotel is already paid, therefore, i must go.... A big SIGH!

School is just making me have constant headache. Why? MONEY!

Life is unpredictable.

BYE!

Why?

2011-02-26T23:14:00.000+08:00

Why must it always be me?

How long can i endure? Ive been telling myself to be patient. Forgive and forget.

Sighhh... I'm still so sad though.

I just wanna run away and disconnect. Cause every time a mistake happen it seems to be my fault and not yours.

Fair much? No!
If you want so much freedom, then just go. Go. Go. Go. Stop telling me that I'm holding you back, i hate it!

I'm just sick and tired. Why? Cause you keep repeating the December 12 2010 incident. Why cant you just forgive and forget?

Fcuk all the promises! I will uphold the promise, and i don't need you to repeat. If you're not satisfied, just go. Ive had enough of you repeating.

Fcuk it, I'm tired of this relationship that hurts.

Bye!

2011-02-11T15:41:00.001+08:00

Oh my god!

Its been pretty long since i last blog.

I have so much to share. KL was awesome. Planning for bangkok in June!

And most importantly, i pass my CLASS 3! Im officially qualified to drive a car. Heheheh...
Shall post some pictures real soon okay.

Bye now!

Excited

2011-01-24T17:41:00.000+08:00

Yeay!

2 more days to KL and 2 more weeks to TP.

Weekends were spent working my ass off and driving lessons as usual.

Saturday night headed down to Grandlink for karaoke. And i got angry with boyf for no apparent reason. Hahah. PMS mode i guess. Thank god he understands. Love him!

Shall be heading down to Singapore Flyer tomorrow to celebrate the 1st part of the birthday. hehehe.. So happy! Its going to be my first time there. Excited!!!

Okay, heading home in 15mins. Bye!!!

Pissed mode on.

2011-01-18T16:59:00.000+08:00

I am so frustrated.

Just because i am unable to book a seat for your business trip you're being pissed off.
The flight is already full and i can't do anything about it.

I mean, if you are already wait listed for the seat then just wait.

There are other people too who needs to go there. WTF.

And we didn't even get any bonus, so just STFU!
Pay is like peanuts working so far, so many things to do. Sucks big time.

I just want to apply for a degree and go job hunting for a better pay with more benefits.

I just want the time to fly by fast. Arrggghh!

2011-01-18T11:57:00.000+08:00

The more i read up about Egypt, the more i feel like going. Sadly, I'm no rich kid..

11 more days to KL, pretty excited even though its only KL. At least I'm travelling. Ha ha!

So many things to get and do this year. Grrr... I don't want to work! Can i be a Tai tai?

Alright, bye now. hahah

Sensitive

2011-01-17T21:01:00.000+08:00

Too sensitive? Deal with it!

Everyone has feelings.

And I hate the fact that people tell their problems to the world. Aren't you even ashamed?

Need or Want?

2011-01-17T15:34:00.000+08:00

Is it a need or want?

Hmmm....

Eygpt

2011-01-13T10:15:00.000+08:00

I was thinking alot just now. And of all things i want to do the most would be travelling to Egypt. Okay, you guys might be wondering. Why Egypt? I mean, i find it really fascinating that all the pyramids and mummies dated back thousands of years ago and of course a land filled with sands. For my 21st birthday, i would want to go and visit Egypt. Will that even be possible? Hmmm..

Some pictures for me to keep on dreaming. If I'm not able to go there on my 21st, i MUST go there on my honeymoon. Hahaha!!

Anyway, 14 more days to KL. 17 more days to my birthday. I think i might pamper myself with a gift. Last year, i got myself a guess watch for 258 bucks. This year, probably a bag. Hahah! Or should i start saving for Egypt?

I would love to experience Egypt with the boyfriend but don't think he can afford it since he's getting a pathetic income through National Service. Booo!

I'M ON LEAVE TOMORROW! Rest day, YEAY!

Alright, bye now!

Gone so young...

2011-01-11T09:44:00.001+08:00

All i wanted was an apology.

I guess, Sorry seems to be the hardest word for you to say.

Why?

2011-01-10T20:49:00.000+08:00

Why was it that 4 years ago it was different?

Am i wrong to say that people change and so do their feelings?

Trying to figure out what it's like moving on;

2011-01-10T20:33:00.000+08:00

What was left when that fire was gone?

I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And i don't even know what kind of things I've said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!!

Those lyrics really got me thinking. Why am i still here when you treat me like this? Why, why, why?

Not even an apology?

I came over to pick you up and you scolded me for being late and it rained? I cant control unforeseen circumstances, why am i even to blame? I really don't get you.

All i wanted to do was tell you, that website has alot of scammers and i don't want you to be cheated. And because of that I'm being called a stalker? What the... I'm you girlfriend for god's sake!

And after all that, you act as if nothing happened? No.. I'm not being weak again..

You think I'm going to bow down to you like a humble dog. FU! Ive been stupid all this time. Not anymore. Fuck you! You want your freedom? Go ahead!

I don't care if I'm not going KL with you in the upcoming week. I don't even have the fcuking mood!

All this freaking while, I've been apologising like a stupid GF.

ARGHHH! I just feel like screaming and running away. Shutting down everything! Being uncontactable.
I'm in so much anger and sadness that i don't feel like seeing you at all!

I'M TRYING TO BE PATIENT HERE, BUT YOU ARE REALLY TESTING ME....
I CAN'T BE PATIENT WITH YOU ANYMORE, GIVEN YOU TOO MUCH FACE!

ARRRGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!1

2011-01-10T11:51:00.000+08:00

I'm trying to be patient.

But really, you're testing it.

You scolded me because I was late and it rained?

And then message me as if nothing happen?

Please.. I'm pissed off ok!

Random blogging

2010-12-28T16:24:00.000+08:00

Its only 3.40pm now and I'm already thinking of heading home.

Why the hell is the time moving by slowly?
Anyway, I've been thinking alot about my annual bonus. Will my company be giving me or will i be stuck with just my basic pay? Hmm..

Oh ya. The other day, on Saturday, went over to the new shopping centre at serangoon central. Nex shopping mall! Wooohoo! I was very excited as it was my first time there but sadly there weren't any good shops other than Charles and Keith. But loads of good food to try if any of you plan to head down. But i heard that the movie theatre is one of the best. Shall try it and blog.

Need to post pictures more often. If only i could blog via iPhone. Life would be easier. Heheh.

Bye now!

2010-12-27T15:40:00.000+08:00

Yes, went to town for some Christmas shopping which made me broke. But i guess it was worth it?

Anyway, spent some quality time with the boyfriend of mine, heheh...

Its 2011 in approximately 5 days time. Wow! Time sure flies past fast. Going to hit the 20's in about 1 months time. But i hope everything will be smooth.. Pass my car license, enrol into my degree course, get out and find a better paying job and then think about the upcoming future again.

Can't wait for my KL trip this coming January, right before my birthday. Yeay!!

Alright, bye bye now!

Lost

2010-12-23T12:47:00.000+08:00

Was this what i have ever wished for?

No. And i hope time can change people and their point of view.

Knowing that some things are out of our control makes me fear the worst in situations. What if? What if? What if? It always starts with what if?

Should i regret the things I've done in life? No. Those mistakes are there for a reason, for us to learn and grow. And for each mistake I've done, i hoped I've become a better person. And can we say life is forgiving? Should you forgive those who has done wrong to you? I believe so. You only lived once, and if you can't forgive when will it be the next time you'll ever cross paths?

Possible for one to hold the anger inside and be patient? For how long? How long will one be able to forgive and move on as though nothing happened? Sigh.

Lost. Lost. Lost.

2010-12-21T10:39:00.000+08:00

Can money keep coming in without me having to work?

I just feel as if i don't have the time to do anything nowadays. Weekdays are spent working on my full-time job and week-ends are spend working guardian morning shift.

Cant seem to find the time to actually learn my driving and go out. Grr. I hate it! And when i do go out, I'm left feeling drained out. Wtf!

I'm thinking of quiting guardian in a few months time. Once KL and Syahiran's birthday is over and when I'm starting school.. And to make matters worst, after all that i have to start saving up for my bike insurance. Grr... I HATE ALL THIS SAVING UP MONEY FOR ALL OTHER THINGS EXCEPT FOR ME!

Why does my life have to be this hard? Why oh why?

2010-12-20T16:20:00.002+08:00

My weekends were well spent...

I need to upload the pictures soon. Heheh..

Right now, gotta get back to work.. Bye!

Universal Studio Singapore 12.12.10

2010-12-16T11:51:00.000+08:00

I know all my previous posts were really emo. Well, i fought with my boyfriend of course.

Even though we're good now, i don't feel all that better. I wonder why. Hmm...
Anyway, enough of the emo posts, Sunday was spent at Universal Studio Singapore! Yeay. Not a great start to my Sunday, but it became better when the sun rises. Had alot of fun on the rides and sight seeing. Bought some universal studio goods which came to a total of 120 bucks. Haha! Alright, shall drown my blog with pictures. Enjoy.

Amber pacific -

2010-12-14T10:34:00.000+08:00

If only time could take away,
the truth that lies beneath this pain
It brings me back to what I'd hope for this to be
But here and now, I'm on my own
I've lost the will to carry on,
please shine a light to guide me home

Will you take me from this place I call,
my home's forever broken
I have nothing in this heart at all,
this life seems meaningless, unspoken
Words can't convey,
I'll move on anyway,
I can't hide behind what I don't know
Have I lost it all?

If only time could take away,
all the fights, the will to save
What was left behind, you know I tried,
I tried to save this fate
But here and now, I'm on my own
For I have walked this road alone,
I gave my best to let this fall..

2010-12-12T00:11:00.000+08:00

All I feel like doing is cry. Will that make me feel better? Time will heal, but for how long? I can't imagine myself going through what I went through 2 years ago. But I need to pull myself together. I hope I'm able to...

Split

2010-12-11T23:11:00.001+08:00

I just feel so dead inside..

Is it wrong?

2010-12-11T18:57:00.000+08:00

Evening.

I'm not sure how I'm actually feeling. I feel like I'm in a state of shocked. Is it wrong for me to judge? No, I don't think so. And I stand by what I say.

Well.. How would one feel if ever your loved one were to say "the greatest pain from love is loving someone you can't have"

How would your reaction be? Angry, curious, heartbroken? Well, those were all the feeling I actually felt. An most importantly being betrayed. Sigh...

I don't even know what I'm supposed to do now. But whatever it is, guess I'll have to be strong and learn to let go and move forward. There's so many things I need to achieve and I can't let this stop me. This has stopped me before, when I was doing my diploma. Not anymore, I gotta be strong.

I need to suceed, with or without you.

Green-eyed.

2010-12-09T17:45:00.000+08:00

25 more minutes before i ride back home. Yipee! And that will be the start to my weekends.

Anyway, I'm rather bored working and i decided to spend some time here blogging. Don't really feel like working today as my leave is about to start.

I was browsing through facebook earlier just now i was feeling quite envious. Why? Well, most of the people i know are heading overseas to get their degree or masters. And i cant help feeling all green-eyed. I really wish i was able to study overseas but sadly i cant afford. Just have to stick with old boring Singapore.Sigh.

But well, i shouldn't feel all sad about my life right? At least i have my loved ones around, especially syahiran. Its okay, i can always travel there. Right now, i need to focus on working and getting my degree. And hopefully after that everything will be smooth sailing.

Alright, 15 more mins before i head back now. Better finish off my workload.

Goodbye.

Life today

2010-12-08T15:54:00.000+08:00

Its been quite some time since i actually change my blog skin. But i was feeling rather bored with the current one and therefore i changed it. Feeling abit stressed with the lack of cash at hand right now.

Why the hell did i get a small sling bag for $109? That's really on impulse. And to make matters worst i bought it on credit. I wont feel the pinch now but once the bill statement arrives I'll be sobbing in a corner. Booo....

But the bag was totally gorgeous, shall post a picture of it here once i reached home and take snapshots of it.

Can't wait for Friday to arrive. Why? Cause im on leave till Monday. Yipee. Which means I'll only be back in the office on Tuesday.

Shall be going out with my mum on Friday, working guardian on Saturday morning, Universal studio on Sunday and Going JB on Monday. Yipee!!

Looking forward to my weekends even though I'm not Zouking out.

And when January comes.. KL and my 20th Birthday!

Alright goodbye now...

2010-11-25T10:00:00.000+08:00

I find this quote meaningful. Have a look below;

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

-Mother Teresa

2010-11-24T16:56:00.003+08:00

Good day,

Work has been more so relaxing. Ive tooked up a part-time job to help me save enough money for school and a designer handbag.

Dying to get an LV Berkeley or Hamstead. But that depends on how much I'm willing to spend. Any Lv bag in the range of 1.5 k? Heheh.. With that amount i can actually go on a holiday.

The closest i have to an expensive bag is a coach bag given by my boyfriend for our 5th year anniversary. And being a guy who is not savvy with the internet world. He bought the bag at the boutique which cost $490 after discount. But whatever it is, i was overjoyed.

Right now, my weekends are packed with work and driving lessons. Will be booking my TP this week or next week depending on my free time. Hhehe..

Don't think I'm getting a car once i passed unless mum wants to sponsor down payment. Hhaha!

Not sure if anyone is reading this blog of mine, but if you are reading, Please help me by clicking the Nuffnang advert on your left.

Thanks in advance!!

2010-11-12T17:03:00.002+08:00

Weekend is near! Yeay!

Somehow im excited and not really. Why? I'll be lonely on weekends cause boyf is working.

Suck much?

Thinking of something to do.. Hmm..

ok ok, bye bye for now...

2010-11-02T16:57:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

Its been awhile since i last blog shall start blogging more often now. Hmmm...

Cant wait to end work in 1 hours time.

Alright now, back to work.

2010-10-11T15:33:00.001+08:00

I really feel like rebonding my hair but boyf keep saying dont.

Why?

Because he knows i'll regret it if it turns out ugly. Hahah.

Somehow, he is always right. hahah..

2010-10-11T15:28:00.001+08:00

Ok, back again.

Ive been thinking...

what can i do to make this blog more lively?

Ok, not that anyone reads this... But im just bored...

hmm.....

2010-10-11T15:13:00.003+08:00

Monday blues.

Back to work after the weekend im feeling really lazy. Saturday just hang out with the boyfriend and sunday went kite flying and karaoke.

Bought my a brand new ipod casing. Its all blingy. I like so much. Actual price was 35 bucks but was on offer therefore got it straightaway.

Alright, im trying to figure out how to blog via iphone if possible.

Therefore, i can post pictures easily. Hahah. bye now!

2010-10-07T10:12:00.002+08:00

Good Morning!

I've been happy most of this week. Why?

Ive received a coach bag from boyf and now he wants me to go KL on a shopping trip with him. SHOPPING?! What??... Of course i'll be over the moon. And the best part, we're going on my birthday, flying over to KL, staying at a 5 star hotel and booking a suite room. Gosh.. Excited or what?!

Shall start booking everything next month. Yipee.... Not sure who else will be able to join us but the more the merrier right?

Hahaha... I wonder what he's getting me on my birthday. Hmmm... hahaha

October, November, December and then January! Fast fast fast!

March his birthday and May back to school!! Yipee!

Hopefully i can take leave. All the best to me.. Hhaha

2010-10-04T11:13:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA.

Went out with mac riders and boyf on the 24th of September, great fun!
Most of the pictures are on facebook.

Anyway, cant believe its already October! And yes, my 5th year anniversary celebration is over. Sadly we didn't do much but i was more than happy cause boyf gave the best gift ever.

He brought over this large paerbag bearing COACH name all over. And it just blew me away. .............

A beautiful Coach bag. My very first coach bag. Love my boyfriend alot!

I was more shocked as i asked him, die he pre-order or bought it online? I was expecting online as it is way cheaper. But he said no and told me he bought it from the boutique. WHAT?!! BOUTIQUE?!! That's too expensive.

Cant believe it...

Hhaha.. But whatever it is I'm so so happy. Anniversary Coach bag, birthday can i have LV? I doubt so, way to expensive and beyond he's means.

Alright, take care now! Bye!!!

2010-09-30T13:51:00.002+08:00

Oh my god!

2 more days.
2 more days.
2 more days.

I really cant wait to go on a date with boyf. Its been awhile.

I wanted to head over to universal studio but boyf says its not worth it right now since some of the rides arent fully opened.

Nevermind.

Anyway, going to get his hp today and giving his secret gift on saturday. And i really wonder what he's getting me. I'll be totally shock for sure. He's been tricking me on all the sort of gifts he's getting me. Makes me sad thinking about it. Haha.

I really really hope its something i want. But it doesnt matter, its the thoughts that counts.

Alright bye now!

2010-09-27T16:33:00.002+08:00

Oh my gosh.

Its been 7 days since i last blog.

Anyway, 5 more days to my anniversary celebration. I cant wait! Excited to see my gift and of course giving boyfriend's gift as well. He's actually lucky. Getting him the iPhone 4 but with plan of course. I'm just paying for the phone. His mum will sign the line up for him and he'll be paying the monthly bill of 56 bucks. That will be on Friday.

And then we will be heading out on the Saturday as well. Yeay.. Just bought him something special just now during lunch time. Hope he likes it. Shall start being thrifty now.

Hopefully, we will be watching wall street. I wanna watch that show badly.

And I'm still considering on the longchamp bag. Haha..

Alright. Bye for now!

2010-09-20T12:24:00.002+08:00

Good Afternoon Readers (If there are ever any).

Shall be heading out for lunch in 1 hours time.

12 more days before boyf and i celebrate our 5 years anniversary together.
I cant believe we've been together for 5 years. Of course, there are break-ups and make-ups.

I wonder what boyf is going to get for me. I shall be getting him IPhone 4, not much really cause he'll be signing up for a line and I'll be paying for the phone.

Where should we go for our 5 years anniversary? Hmm.. Movie, dinner and shopping i suppose?
Might be getting the longchamp bag next week i guess. Le pliage or planetes? Hmmm....

Anyway, i will be continuing my studies next year. Yipee! But of course with my own money and a little help from mummy.

I'm so excited. But of course, i wont be able to splurge on anything cause i'll be putiing aside approximately 600 a month for studies starting from this month :(

This time, I'll study hard and make sure to top the class. I can't and wouldn't want to flung this time cause its with my hard earned money. Damn!

Alright, 45mins left before my lunch break.

Goodbye.

2010-09-17T15:13:00.002+08:00

Oh no.

Its been awhile since i last blog.

Gotten myself the long awaited phone. Yeay..

And of course a wallet for myself.

5 years anniversary is around the corner and im still cracking my brain on what to get.

I really hope boyf doesnt get me something expensive as im broke and dont think i'll be able to afford expensive products..

alright goodbye now!

2010-09-03T14:09:00.002+08:00

Time: 2.09pm
Current mood: Sleepy

Good afternoon letterperfectt.

Home in 3 hours 15mins. Shall rush back home to change and straight over to SSDC for my Basic Theory Test. All the best to myself. Or should i just go straight from work, test is at 645pm.

Thank god its Friday. Weekends are here!

Anyway, both my baju raya yesterday over at geylang with my parents. Yeay. Thought of getting red, but i cant seem to find any nice red costume. Therefore, opted for black orange. Fell in love at the 1st sight of it. Boyf has to get something in black then, hehe!

I feel like doing something to m hair for raya. Have been contemplating on temporary straightening or temporary curls. But I'm afraid that those hairstyling wont last me for approximately 2 weeks? Since I'm riding and stuff. Tough on the hair.

Thought of colouring whole hair but I'm afraid that it'll damage my hair and make it super dry.
Hmm, never mind. Shall give it more thought.

Alright, I'm done for now. Bye!

2010-09-02T16:34:00.002+08:00

Hello Letterperfectt,

Approximately 45mins more before i head home from work. Shall be resting at home for awhile before breaking fast and of course heading down to geylang to get my clothes.

Boyfriend isn't able to join me there as he doesn't have any bike. I'm really disappointed that he isn't able to be there with me. But on a happier note, I'll be able to indulge myself with none other than Dengdeng! Yipee.. I cant wait to get the Chilli Dengdeng. Shall get at least 200/300 grams.

Red again this year, really excited.

Anyway, my basic theory test for the car will be tomorrow at 645pm at Singapore safety driving center. Nervous and excited at the same time. Hopefully, I'll pass with flying colours.

Saturday shall be going out with boyfriends MacDonald riders to geylang. Again, Dengdeng!

Current mood: Missing boyfriend. Haaha!
Time check: 4.41pm

Goodbye!

2010-09-01T11:22:00.002+08:00

What a bad start to my morning.

And again i lost money again. Why?
I accidentally banged a stucked up arrogant Chinese guy's side mirror. Alright i admit it was my fault but you could have been reasonable. Why?

For god's sake, its just a tiny tiny tiny chip off. Super tiny that you have to look closely in order to see it. And for that you quote me 50 bucks in order for you to respray the whole side mirror.

I think you're too poor. Its okay, you'll sure get your retribution.

What a week! God has been challenging me with alot of stuff. Let me list it out for future reminiscing.

Bike inspection $80
Bike was spoilt, repair cost $98
Bike was summon $70
Bike hit side mirror $50
Bike insurance & road tax $774

Total damage for bike alone : $1072

Can it get any worst? But inspection and insurance is expected of course. So in actually fact its $218. For the summon i shall try appealing so minus that it'll be $148..

Hais. Somehow, i feel so stress.

Alright goodbye!

2010-08-30T16:08:00.002+08:00

Good day!

How was your weekend? I hope it has been good.

As for me, i enjoyed a whole lot. Right now, having some free time in order to blog...

Shall be heading home in 1hr 15mins time.

Feeling really hungry today, cant wait to break fast. Guess i'll be eating Nasi Briyani today. Haha. But not the Northpoint one for sure. I need to save money.

Therefore it shall be the coffeeshop Briyani. Heheh..

Alright now, Bye!

2010-08-27T11:20:00.002+08:00

Does love really makes the world go round or is it money?

I believe money makes the world go round but love & friendship plays a part too. Imagine. You not having any money, and yet your friends/significant other asks you out? Alright, maybe you could watch some DVDs at home and eat homemade food but of course, all those require money. True?

But money too brings out the true colours of us human beings. Of course, there are a handful of us who actually can survive without money. Somehow I'm rather angry at money. Lets share some experience.

Right now I'm holding a full-time job and having a steady income (Not too much but satisfied for now). But the fact is whenever pay is in, i feel all the burden that's been on me weighing heavily. Why? Firstly, paying all the bills and settling all the loans. Secondly, giving some of my pay to my parents and after which I'll be broke. Not really broke, but unable to have disposable income. Why? I need to save for the future and rainy days. Talking about responsibilities.

Alright, let me share something randomly.

Lets say A & B are best friends.(Both guys)

A has gotten his pay and after settling all his bills, he still has some disposable income to spend. B on the other hand earns half A's income and after settling all his finances, he's left with practically nothing. Both A & B has a car but B sold off his car due to financial difficulties and he's left with some bills to pay as he's car wasn't enough. B is so stress, searching high and low for a solution to settle his debt before his interest rises was unable to come up with enough money.

Therefore, he decided to confide to his friend A (keep in mind that A still has some disposable income). And so B asked A for a solution. All A could say was to ask his parents. Of course, parents will be able to help. Tell me which parent doesn't care for their children? But B got defensive and angry and starting scolding A for not helping. And for that they are not on talking terms.

Do you find it fair for B to scold A?
No i don't think so. All be could do was to open his mouth and ask A for some money.
I believe A will surely help a friend in need.

Alright. I think I'll end this post here. I've been blabbering non-stop.

Take care!

2010-08-23T16:40:00.002+08:00

Yeay!

Just received my cheque. Can't wait to cash it.

Anyway, I'll be going home in 45mins but I'll be home late. Why?
It's gonna rain anytime now, the sky is dark and i think it'll pour heavily.
Thank god i brought my raincoats today, really lucky.

Shall be heading home to break fast and pick my mum up from work and at the same time drop off the cheque.

From now onwards. Shall start posting more pictures at least.
Bye!

2010-08-23T11:02:00.002+08:00

Good morning letterperfectt.

I can't believe its already the 23rd of August, 8 days more and its September. Mum's birthday is in 10days time!

What should i get for her?
Shall brainstorm with boyfriend.

Somehow, i miss my Syahiran. Eventhough i met him yesterday it was only for a short while.

Im really hungry, but what to do. Need to fast..

Gotta go! Bye!

2010-08-19T10:45:00.002+08:00

Good Morning.

Right now I'm in the office with abit of spare time to blog.

Yesterday was great. Its been awhile since i last saw Shasha, Nabilah, Nina and Aini. And of course, heading over to mummy's house. They were some what of my stress reliever.

Anyway, while i was there, lots of chatting and we playing Monopoly Deal. Thanks to Nina for teaching me and i turned out to be the champion. 4 out of 5 wins.

Might be heading over to Geylang Bazaar tomorrow (Friday). Really hope it will happen cause it's been awhile since i last saw Bon.

It's been 2 days now, and I've not met my boyfriend yet. I really hate YOG for taking my boyfriend away. Anyway, i shall be meeting boyfriend today for break fast. Shall be heading over to Woodlands bazaar for Dengdeng and snacks. Yipee!

But i need to rush back home from work today. Hopefully, Lornie Road wont be jammed with cars.

Feels like watching Step Up 3D, but i think it will be packed today at Woodlands Cathay Cineplex.

Alright now, back to work. Thanks for reading!

2010-08-18T14:14:00.002+08:00

Hello letterperfectt.

Its been awhile.

Life has been treating me well so far. I was just looking back through my blog archive and i notice that i didn't have much of boyfriend picture.

We're going to be 5 years soon and i don't have much of his picture in my blog. Its really disheartening. Could i have been that ignorant those last 4 years? I wonder.

Currently working over at habourfront, every things good here.

Boyfriend and i just fought recently and it was a good fight. Somehow we got our fair share of scolding each other. And we're good again.

Shall be meeting Nina and friends after work/break fast. I cant wait, its been way too long and somehow I'm excited/nervous.

I really cant wait! Don't think I'll be riding to meet them though, guess i shall be taking the bus then.

What more should i be typing? I'm done for now.

Goodbye all!

2010-08-04T09:47:00.000+08:00

Oh my! Its been two months since i last blog...

Anyway, ive found myself a new job over at habourfront.
Anyway, kinda busy now. Shall blog again during lunch time ya...

Bye!

2010-06-12T18:33:00.002+08:00

Oh my god!

What a bad timing.

Yesterday was the worst day. Fcuk it! Why must you do that? Argghh. Im just speechless. Of all the bad things in the world you did that.

Im freaked out and scared. And i wonder if you'll do it again.

ARRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-06-05T14:31:00.002+08:00

Hello!

Dinner and dance was okay. But i think they should really cut down on the length of speeches giving. Went for the first ever Jansenites Dinner and Dance over at Serangoon Gardens Country Club. Or should i say, second? Anyway, had to work in the morning which ended early as requested by me.

Aini came over my crib at 230pm and we were slacking and talking all the way till 4pm. Did our make up and got our hair done before calling a cab over.

Once we arrived, headed to the toilet to change into our jerseys. Blah blah blah... Buffet time! Had a great dinner thanks to Jansenites. After which, belly dancers came on and so was the dutch auction. After all that, everyone hit the dance floor except me and a few others.

Its not that i don't want to have fun, I'm just being lazy moreover I'm wearing high heels. I rather sit down, relax and watch them dance the night away. And i had a good catch up with mazlinda.

Headed off at 1am since its kinda boring. And of course, my beloved boyf picked me up. Even though he was sleeping and he's supposed to work at 8am, he still came over. Love you!

Alright now, good bye!!!

2010-05-25T12:41:00.002+08:00

Good Afternoon blogger.

I'm gaining weight and i hate it.

I need to start working out. My arms are getting fatter, any ideas on how to lose the fats around the arm area?

Back to slacking now. Work at 230pm, booo!

Goodbye!

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2010-05-25T00:19:00.001+08:00

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2010-05-24T12:11:00.002+08:00

Hello letterperfectt.

May is going to end soon and June is coming up. Its been 2 months since i last wrote in here and 3 more weeks before I'm taking off my 'p' plate. 4 more months before my 5 years anniversary with the boyfriend. And of course, 5 more months before going either Bali or Phuket. Everything is happening so fast and I've yet to get a proper job.

I really hope I'll be selected to work for that bank. Please give me a call back for 3rd round of interview.

If ever i don't, I'll continue finding for a proper job. I must never give up!

Work sucks but I'm fine with it. Bike's in bad condition and needs servicing. But I'm tight on money since i need to renew my insurance in September. 1k just for insurance, i can just die. And I've been thinking on being the 2nd owner for boyf's bike. But again, i need money.

I guess life revolves around money.

I shall end this now. Goodbye.

2010-03-21T14:24:00.000+08:00

Good day blogger.

Its been awhile. Boyf's bdae was a blast. i love every bit of it...

Thank you to those who were there...

im gonna blog soon. lazy now! bye

2010-03-02T23:43:00.002+08:00

Some people are just irritating, I shall let them be cause its their life.

Anyway, good evening letterperfectt. Its been awhile since i last blog.

February was good. And now, its already march. Shall be booking my KL trip next week, settle my bike road tax plus extension of insurance and of course boyf's birthday present. I gotta feeling that i'll be spending at least $1000 on all these.

I cant wait for everything.

Shall head to bed now, goodnight.

2010-02-14T11:18:00.002+08:00

Good morning letterperfectt.

Its Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day today. Sadly, I'm not celebrating. Work sucks big time, sighs! I feel so lazy and restless.

I'm not looking forward to work. I just hate it there! I just have to endure abit more and I'm off to KL to relax myself. I can't wait 6 more weeks!

I should be getting ready by now, but as usual I'm freaking lazy. Have to head there early to make-up and bun my hair. Arghh! its so time consuming.

Nothing much has happened in my life. Work as usual and its getting boring. But i cant to anything much. Well, i cant wait for my off days! And i cant wait to meet boyfriend! Haven't seen him in exactly 2 days plus tomorrow, that will make it 3 days. I shall see you on Tuesday. Hahah..

Alright now, i gotta go. I shall blog whenever i on the laptop ya. Bye!

2010-02-09T08:55:00.002+08:00

Good morning Letterperfectt.

All has been good so far. And shall be starting work again later at 12pm. Sadly, I'll be working on Chinese New Year. Booo!!

Actually, i have nothing to blog about. Hahah! Just bored i guess.

I cant wait to go KL with the boyfriend of mine. Why must they have air tickets for Bali? Why?! Heehee. Stupid question. Aim: Bali/Bangkok early next year!

I'm really tight on cash. Grrr. I hate it. Boyf's bdae is like 5 weeks away. Renewal of the motorbike insurance is like 4 months away. Arrggghhh! Hate money problem, but i wanted to go KL. hahaha!

Ok bye!

2010-02-07T12:01:00.002+08:00

Back from boyf's chalet and now im trying to jailbreak my iphone. Hahah!

Anyway, boyf and myself have decided to go for a holiday. Either last week of march or first week of april. I cant wait... But sadly, we're only planning to go KL cause after calculating we dont have enough money for Bali. BOOO!!!!! But hopefully by end of this year ya. I know boyf is dying to head down to bali. Hhahha..

Alright, busy jailbreaking! bye

2010-01-31T23:09:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Oh my, im already 19. That was fast.

Anyway, bought myself a watch. Burnt my pocket with a big hole as it costs me SGD260. But I totally love it. Anyway, boyf bought me an ipod nano Gen 5. I love it too.

Thank you dear! Goodbye now! Work tmr!

2010-01-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

i need to sleep now! bye ahhahaha

2010-01-20T22:10:00.002+08:00

Hello Blogger!

Back again for more blogging. Its the 20th today and it'll be 30th in 10 more days! I cant wait. But sadly, I'll be working on my birthday. But its okay cause Sunday is my OFF DAY! Yeay! I need retail therapy, 313 somerset here i come. Alright, shall keep twittering as often as possible ya! I think my blogging life sucks now...

Till whenever. Goodnight!

And I miss Muhd Nor Syahiran:(

2010-01-17T20:55:00.001+08:00

Work has been good so far.

Boyf has been good too.

Birthday is in 2 weeks! Cant wait! I wonder what boyf is going to get for me. Hopefully something i want. Hehehe!

Shall go shopping on birthday i guess. Its pay day! Yahoo!!

Ok now. bye

2010-01-10T23:12:00.001+08:00

Excited but nervous for tomorrow. What should i wear?!!!! arghhhh..............

2010-01-03T22:28:00.003+08:00

Some of the pictures from the Dinner & Dance. Plus fishing trip at Sembawang Park.

Happy 2010! May god bless all of us.

Anyway, spent my new year at home. Why? Went out to meet the boyfriend at 8pm. Headed down to Khatib area to meet more of his friends to watch Taufik Batisah. But i ended going back at 1115pm cause i was having a really bad gastric pain. Reached home, and vomited everything i ate just now. Horrible. The pain was unbearable and i thank god i went home early.

Fishing over at Sembawang park was fun but tiring. Hehehe...

2009 has been a roller coaster ride for me. But everything is over now and i hope 2010 will be a fruitful year.

New Year Resolution:

Be more thrifty.
Let go of the past. Forgive and forget. (esp things regarding Syahiran)
To stay calm whenever possible.
To love and be loved.

I guess that's it for the time being. I bet there will be much more to come.

Its already 4th January 2010, and I'm 18 going on 19. Boyfriend's turning 20 soon and we've been together since 2005 (excludes break-ups) and more years to come, i hope. Oh my god, time flies way too fast. And its been way too long since i last played hockey. Hmm, I'm not quite sure what else to blog.

I'll end it here for the time being. Goodbye now!

Lots of love,

Mardhiah

2009-12-29T22:30:00.001+08:00

This time, i'm going to be alright. I know i'm strong enough for this.

2009-12-22T16:15:00.002+08:00

I need to update this space. I'll probably update it this thursday with pictures. For now, im gonna watch gossip girl. Bye!

2009-12-14T20:06:00.002+08:00

Oh ya, before i forget. I better blog about my weekend.

On Saturday, nothing much as usual. I really wanted to go ZO but boyf was against it, telling me its a waste of money and stuff. Oh well, pffft... But I'm contented enough. I love you boyfriend. And on Sunday, had macd breakfast with boyfriend after which accompanied boyfriend for escort.

So that's about it. Bye...

2009-12-14T19:30:00.003+08:00

And again I'm not able to upload pictures.

Alright, back to blogging.

Work today was good as i did alot of calling instead of paper works. I really cant wait for my pay day. Pay my bike installment, pay my hand phone bill and give my mum 100 bucks. And then I'm gonna go shopping for more clothes and heels. I cant wait!

Right now, i miss my boyfriend. How i wish he's already posted out and working office hour like myself.

Bye for now, I'm heading off for dinner.

And I've gained weight:(

2009-12-13T19:58:00.003+08:00

It's really frustrating that blogger doesn't allow me to upload pictures. And now, I'm stuck with a slow Internet connection. Boyfriend is back in camp and I'm sad. Firstly, my time spent with him was short. Secondly, I'm working tomorrow. Thirdly, I'm stuck with team building activity this Saturday at East Coast Park and Dinner and Dance at Shangri-la hotel on Sunday. And i wont be able to meet the boyfriend of mine. Urggh..

I want this week to be over and done with. Its so frustrating that I'm learning everything a purchaser needs to be doing and going home at 6pm from Monday to Friday when i can go back at 530pm. My 2nd boss keeps dragging her time and i hate it. Sometimes, i wish i could just scream at her. I hate her nagging and i hate the fact that she stinks. Arghh!

Oh, whatever. Bye for now. Shall update tomorrow with pictures i hope.

2009-12-06T09:20:00.002+08:00

My gosh. I've failed my theory trial test for cars twice. TWICE! I didn't expect it to be that hard. I thought it'll be something like theory trial test for bikes, but no. It was a lot tougher. I guess i'll book another session next week and pray to god that i pass. Gosh! I need to pass by next year before raya.

Ok, I've rant enough. Hello letterperfectt. I back for more blogging. I'm blogging cause i woke up early and currently waiting for 1030 before heading out and having macd breakfast with the boyfriend as usual.

I've finally gotten a full-time job, admin assistant cum purchaser. Starting tomorrow and I'm damn freaking scared. But hope every things gonna be fine. Shall be saving money and shall be taking adv dip next year. I cant wait! After which, degree... This time I'm gonna study hard, really hard. No more remoduling of subjects.

Alright, shall blog tomorrow about my day at work. Goodbye thanks for reading.

2009-11-29T00:55:00.002+08:00

Hello letterperfectt. Its been way too long since i last blog. Anyway life's been good. Ive been slacking my butt off for about a week and a half now. Well, i kinda quit working as a rider.

I'm so tired of working as a delivery rider. Its a tough and rough job but i guess the experience is totally worthwhile. You'll encounter with alot of road do's and don'ts and you'll learn from there. Working as a delivery rider has been fun with all the friends i've made. But now its time for me to find a better job.

Finally I'm done with my diploma and i passed. Currently am waiting for the collection of my certificate. Prolly by end December or early January next year. Planning to find a full-time job and pursue night classes for adv dip. Yipee..

I've gotten a box fixed onto my bike and I'm so in love with it. Ok, its not really nice but its really useful. I can dump alot of stuff in it. Anyway, I've kinda given up pimping my bike. Its really a waste of money. Gonna book my BTT next week. I want to learn how to drive! I cant wait:p

Boyf is still serving his BMT. Thank god he's ending BMT soon.. Hahaaahh..

Boyf and i got summon by cisco just now:( Parking on grass verge. I'm really really sad cause I'm kinda cash strapped. I can't ask mum to pay for my fine again. The first $100 fine, she paid and now this $70 fine. Arghhh...

Alright now, gotta go cause i need to wake up early. Having macd breakfast with boyf tmr. I love Sunday! Nights!

2009-11-23T11:20:00.000+08:00

hello! im gonna blog tomorrow after work... cya!

2009-11-17T21:05:00.002+08:00

Ok, I'm really pissed.

Something wrong with my front brake, i think brake pad's wet. My brake is not braking. Arghh!!! Fcuking have to change it tomorrow!

Wasting my god damn money sia!!!!

I HATE IT!!!!! Working mac tomorrow some more! Must endure going slow for about 2 freaking hours before heading down to the SPC near jln leban to get it fixed. FCUK SIA! Docket today and tomorrow gone to waste just like that.

ARGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-16T19:46:00.002+08:00

Hello. Its been way too long since i last blog.

Anyway, i totally broke. Spent $155 on my bike. Changing my back tyre, engine oil, clutch cable and brake pad. Haiya, sad sad sad. But its okay i guess. Having a bike is really challenging. Gosh!

So boyf is back in camp again and I'm stuck working this whole week. Freaking boring i tell you. I wanna get a full time job like asap! Hopefully by next year.

Watched 2012 on Saturday. Quite a boring show i must say, really disappointed. Cant wait for new moon to hit the theatres. Yeay! I wanna get my nebo card done plus passion card. grr, hopefully by this Friday if i have the time.